May Allah create ease for you sister

Quran highlights 2 qualities of Allah very strongly, His mercy and His knowledge

So the most merciful knows everything u have gone through, everything u r going through and also He knows what will befall u in future

So how can you think He will judge u harshly or sternly?

The concept of failure in life is nothing but deception. No one in this world can define what is failure in this world. Because every person’s circumstances r different so there can’t be a single definition of success or failure

If ur problems do not shake your faith, there’s no better success in this world. This life is nothing but a few moments in an eternal life.

The problems we face could be a result of our actions and we all know that. But problems that happen to us r also from Allah. He test some with test of Sabar and some with test of Shukar. So don’t blame urself. Beside blaming anyone never helps anyway. Whatever u r faced with, try your best and that’s it. Doesn’t matter what anyone says, u know u did ur best and u know that Allah knows. Allah only want us to strive in His way and NOT be successful!

giving success is His decision and not ours.

The hardest part is to fulfill other people’s expectations but if u think about it, we arent obligated to make everyone happy! Our job is to try our best to do the right thing morally given our own circumstances, problems and abilities. Unfortunately, people close to us have unrealistic expectations from us and we also have high expectations from them. Once we bring our expectations down, life becomes easy.

sister do not worry you will pass the test of day of judgement with flying colour . stay blessed.