Asslamualikum!
In case of any doubt related to any philosophy / directive of Islam, instead of feeling inconsolable, you can freely post your doubts or any other reservations regarding any directive of Islam here, and we as a community will try to answer it. Rest assured, just remember that Allah has given you both conscience and consciousness, if you use them without any unnecessary bias and prejudice, you will reach to the right conclusion most of the times. It is your intent & behavior in seeking of the truth that matters the most, not your blind following to any one particular ideology.